Friday(June. 27, 2008) very early morning I received the email from CMU which came way too late. If this email came one month early, I have not hesitation, accepted and moved on. But when I could not confirm any information a month ago, I decided to work on my own. Now, this late email just stirred the pot.
I am so thankful for my sweet friends who listen to my wonder and uncertainties, strongly encourage me to think through what I want to do next. want to whining little bit here "I wish I could sneak out of these decision modes for a second..." :)
It is supper hot here, around 90 through the weekend. I am cooked!! whining here again! goodness, I feel my brain is running crazily, well, I have around one week to make decision.
looking forward to see my family! miss them terribly!
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Can not wait to see my parents!
I am counting down the days when I will fly home. Ever since I got my flight ticket, I began to feel homesick. Really, how old am I? I wonder if there is a certain age that the person will not feel homesick anymore. I doubt I will reach the age soon.
Monday, June 16, 2008
How much do you believe your own abilities?
Have you doubt if you can do what you dream for? what will you tell yourself if you hesitate with your plan/vision? how much confidence you have in you? more than 4 year's development and planning during my spare time and endless evenings, I am approaching the road to build the steps towards the vision. Many factors and thinkings, totally different kind of "stress", but I am glad that I did not give in before while I was not sure. I am very thankful for my parents supports, many times they encouraged me to look at the big picture I want to go for, instead of only thinking. Do not let the safe net stop your moving-forward steps! what kind of wisdom inside!! I am sure there will be more difficulties on the road. I bet there will be time I will be hesitate with my decisions and question. I am glad that I am working and making things happen, then just dreaming. Oh, I love the beauty and unknown of life. Keep up, working hard and focus, you will get there. oh, hey, do not forget to have fun!
I am counting down the time when I will be home. It is always home for me there. I am longing for seeing parents, families and friends. Though I will bring part of tasks along the trip, I will enjoy every minute. Watch this Beijing Welcome You
Current Reading: Harvard Business Review -- Interviews with CEO. This book definitely gathers the good amount of CEO with their advice, wisdom and suggestion. Perfect timely for me to get my mind off the things and listen to their words.
I am counting down the time when I will be home. It is always home for me there. I am longing for seeing parents, families and friends. Though I will bring part of tasks along the trip, I will enjoy every minute. Watch this Beijing Welcome You
Current Reading: Harvard Business Review -- Interviews with CEO. This book definitely gathers the good amount of CEO with their advice, wisdom and suggestion. Perfect timely for me to get my mind off the things and listen to their words.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Happy Birthday!!
Happy Birthday to myself! Yesterday was the Bday, my friend Kristen took me for lunch and Jane & Henry took me for dinner. Tonight, my friends Spee and Bishop hold a birthday dinner for me. I enjoy the time with friends very much.
On birthday, there was an call from the Olympian newspaper sports section interviewed me about my upcoming trip to China working for U.S. Olympic Committee. Here is the link of the news Unfortunately, there were a few errors in the statement. I just have to laugh loud for what is on the newspaper.
This year's birthday is less anxious and stressful than last year. I feel that I am much patient and willing to look the alternative options.
Current reading: How the best of the best get better and better.
On birthday, there was an call from the Olympian newspaper sports section interviewed me about my upcoming trip to China working for U.S. Olympic Committee. Here is the link of the news Unfortunately, there were a few errors in the statement. I just have to laugh loud for what is on the newspaper.
This year's birthday is less anxious and stressful than last year. I feel that I am much patient and willing to look the alternative options.
Current reading: How the best of the best get better and better.
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
strech goal and performance
Tonight is my last lesson on Strategic Management course. I love this course very much. The course challenges me very much, thinking strategically, improving presentation and writing skills. I really like Dr. Alexander, who is very encouraging. She did not look at me as one of numbered students in her class, but saw my strength and weakness, motivating me to face the difficulties and letting me to grow. What a professor! The contents of this course is invaluable!
Last week on May 27th I started my job at State Liquor Control Board, leading a large team. The job duty is very different that I have more hand-on management experience, making me thinking a lot, well, also tired after work. all my close friends know that I like to talk, but at work, I need to talk more professionally than ever, after work, I'd rather be quiet, playing some music or listening music. The mental tiring is very different from physical one. To use my strategic management course term "stretch goal and performance", I literally feel the stretch from my comfort zone to touch the field I am not familiar. Once again, I know no-one likes to change but change could bring you more unexpected. I am waiting for mine.
Last weekend I went to Portland to attend Bill Saltzman's wedding, meeting many familiar faces and ELIC teachers. Before I left Portland, I kept my promise, visiting Grandma Betty at her graveyard, thinking of her, really, I miss her very much!
I am reading a book from Harvard Review, a very thin book, but took me very long time to read and think. Lately, I am gathering and reading "Yifu Lin"'s biography, a new appointed chief economist for the world bank. This man is amazing Chinese man. if you have time, check him out. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Justin_Yifu_Lin
current reading: Jack Welch's biography.
Last week on May 27th I started my job at State Liquor Control Board, leading a large team. The job duty is very different that I have more hand-on management experience, making me thinking a lot, well, also tired after work. all my close friends know that I like to talk, but at work, I need to talk more professionally than ever, after work, I'd rather be quiet, playing some music or listening music. The mental tiring is very different from physical one. To use my strategic management course term "stretch goal and performance", I literally feel the stretch from my comfort zone to touch the field I am not familiar. Once again, I know no-one likes to change but change could bring you more unexpected. I am waiting for mine.
Last weekend I went to Portland to attend Bill Saltzman's wedding, meeting many familiar faces and ELIC teachers. Before I left Portland, I kept my promise, visiting Grandma Betty at her graveyard, thinking of her, really, I miss her very much!
I am reading a book from Harvard Review
current reading: Jack Welch's biography.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
life's ups and downs
The past week and half, I have been following closely to the earthquake in my motherland. I feel the fragile of life, the helpless of seeing the natural disaster, the heart-broken connecting what happened there and my current environment. A lot of time, I could only use a word of "disbelieve" to describe, feeling guilty to live comfortably here. While I complain the hard choice of my career and investment, I forgot how important to live, to live without worries of food and clothes. Reading the news, I realize what I should consider important in life. The cards are re-prioritized. My thoughts and prayers are with the victims.
---- from Luo Lan ----
每个人都可能有环境不好，遭遇坎坷，工作辛苦的时候。说得严重一点，几乎可以说，在我们每个人降生到这个世界以前，就被注定了要背负起经历各种困难折磨的命运。
但这并不是说，因此就该认定人间没有乐趣，或生命没有价值。我们虽然被注定了
要靠劳力、靠工作来维持自己的生活，虽然被注定了有七情六欲来品尝人间各种各样的离合悲欢；但在另一方面，我们却有机会欣赏这有鸟语花香的世界，我们还有智慧可以体味人间苦乐的真谛，我们也还有心情来领略人间的爱心、善良和同情是何等的珍贵。总而言之，和我们所付出的代价比起来，我们的收获是值得的。
我常把人生比做一次旅行，辛劳和苦难算做是我们所不能不花的旅费。而在这一趟
旅程中，我们可以得到各种各样五色缤纷的经验。当我们痛苦的时候，可以当做那是我们在旅途中的涉水跋山、走狭路、过险桥。而当我们快乐的时候，那是我们到达了风光明媚的处所，卸下了行装，洗去了风尘，在欣赏留连。也正如旅行一样，不在某一处风景区永远停留，而只能在驻足一阵之后，就又该背起行囊去寻觅另一处佳境。
因此，人间的苦苦乐乐，我们都该把它看做理所当然。做生意顺利的时候，财源滚
滚而来，取之不尽，用之不竭，那是顺境。一旦遇上风险，逆境来临，就又要过一过节衣缩食的苦日子，不够坚强的人当逆境来临时，就难免会匆匆结束这次旅行，提早承认自己的失败；而假如我们够坚强，就该明白，我们就是为经历这些风险而来。
做为一个像样的旅行家需要勇气，也唯有有勇气承担旅途风险的人才可以到达人生
的胜境，才可以领略到一般人所领略不到的“化险为夷”，“夜尽天明”，“腊尽春回”等等的乐趣。因此，逢到逆境时，我们要忍一忍、熬一熬、再多拿出一分勇气和信心；不要只看旅途的艰苦，而要把希望的灯光点亮，去照见那你所想要去的地方。
我们每一个人都有受到环境压力的时候；但在这时候，你与其悲伤流泪，就不如将
就自己既有的条件去慢慢耕耘，等一旦机会来临，自己也有了足够的条件去应付了，境遇就好转了。许多事实使我相信，一个人的生活需要可以缩小到最小限度，而一样保持乐天达观的心倩。只要你自己不让自己消沉灰颓，环境是不能把你怎样的。
懂得旅行乐趣的人，往往对平坦好走、容易达到的地方没有兴趣，而偏偏喜欢去找
那些险峻的山，未开发的林，或没有人烟的岛。他们认为旅行的乐趣在于克服那些途中的困难，在于到达别人所不易到达的地方，在于发现新的佳境。
懂得人生的人也是一样，他们往往不喜欢平稳凡庸的生活，而有胆量去尝试一些困
难的、冒险的、但却有内容、有意义的生活。因为他们知道，当困难克服了，险境过去了，他们才会尝到一些人生的真味，他们才会真正懂得人生的苦是怎样的苦法，乐又是怎样的乐法，贫穷的滋味怎样，失恋的滋味如何，而他们最大的收获却往往是成功的快乐。
俗话说：“吃得苦中苦，方为人上人。”所谓“人上人”并不是一般功利的想法；
而是说，他可以在生活上比一般人较为豁达开通，眼光远大，做起事来可以得心应手。如果我们从小就安安稳稳无风无浪的像花朵一样生活在暖房里，我们所见的天日就只有那一点点，所能适应的温度也就只有那一点点，那还有什么意思呢？
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---- from Luo Lan ----
每个人都可能有环境不好，遭遇坎坷，工作辛苦的时候。说得严重一点，几乎可以说，在我们每个人降生到这个世界以前，就被注定了要背负起经历各种困难折磨的命运。
但这并不是说，因此就该认定人间没有乐趣，或生命没有价值。我们虽然被注定了
要靠劳力、靠工作来维持自己的生活，虽然被注定了有七情六欲来品尝人间各种各样的离合悲欢；但在另一方面，我们却有机会欣赏这有鸟语花香的世界，我们还有智慧可以体味人间苦乐的真谛，我们也还有心情来领略人间的爱心、善良和同情是何等的珍贵。总而言之，和我们所付出的代价比起来，我们的收获是值得的。
我常把人生比做一次旅行，辛劳和苦难算做是我们所不能不花的旅费。而在这一趟
旅程中，我们可以得到各种各样五色缤纷的经验。当我们痛苦的时候，可以当做那是我们在旅途中的涉水跋山、走狭路、过险桥。而当我们快乐的时候，那是我们到达了风光明媚的处所，卸下了行装，洗去了风尘，在欣赏留连。也正如旅行一样，不在某一处风景区永远停留，而只能在驻足一阵之后，就又该背起行囊去寻觅另一处佳境。
因此，人间的苦苦乐乐，我们都该把它看做理所当然。做生意顺利的时候，财源滚
滚而来，取之不尽，用之不竭，那是顺境。一旦遇上风险，逆境来临，就又要过一过节衣缩食的苦日子，不够坚强的人当逆境来临时，就难免会匆匆结束这次旅行，提早承认自己的失败；而假如我们够坚强，就该明白，我们就是为经历这些风险而来。
做为一个像样的旅行家需要勇气，也唯有有勇气承担旅途风险的人才可以到达人生
的胜境，才可以领略到一般人所领略不到的“化险为夷”，“夜尽天明”，“腊尽春回”等等的乐趣。因此，逢到逆境时，我们要忍一忍、熬一熬、再多拿出一分勇气和信心；不要只看旅途的艰苦，而要把希望的灯光点亮，去照见那你所想要去的地方。
我们每一个人都有受到环境压力的时候；但在这时候，你与其悲伤流泪，就不如将
就自己既有的条件去慢慢耕耘，等一旦机会来临，自己也有了足够的条件去应付了，境遇就好转了。许多事实使我相信，一个人的生活需要可以缩小到最小限度，而一样保持乐天达观的心倩。只要你自己不让自己消沉灰颓，环境是不能把你怎样的。
懂得旅行乐趣的人，往往对平坦好走、容易达到的地方没有兴趣，而偏偏喜欢去找
那些险峻的山，未开发的林，或没有人烟的岛。他们认为旅行的乐趣在于克服那些途中的困难，在于到达别人所不易到达的地方，在于发现新的佳境。
懂得人生的人也是一样，他们往往不喜欢平稳凡庸的生活，而有胆量去尝试一些困
难的、冒险的、但却有内容、有意义的生活。因为他们知道，当困难克服了，险境过去了，他们才会尝到一些人生的真味，他们才会真正懂得人生的苦是怎样的苦法，乐又是怎样的乐法，贫穷的滋味怎样，失恋的滋味如何，而他们最大的收获却往往是成功的快乐。
俗话说：“吃得苦中苦，方为人上人。”所谓“人上人”并不是一般功利的想法；
而是说，他可以在生活上比一般人较为豁达开通，眼光远大，做起事来可以得心应手。如果我们从小就安安稳稳无风无浪的像花朵一样生活在暖房里，我们所见的天日就只有那一点点，所能适应的温度也就只有那一点点，那还有什么意思呢？
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Monday, May 12, 2008
Two weeks notice!
Now I finally submit the final two weeks notice. I will begin the new job on 27th. To be honest, I am very much looking forward to this new change. This is just a beginning step which I have been wanting to take for several years. A lot of time, the brick wall is build by myself with my hesitation and assumptions.
To be or not to be on the path I originally planned, I learn that it is important to keep my mind open and look at other opportunities.
To be or not to be on the path I originally planned, I learn that it is important to keep my mind open and look at other opportunities.
Are you a A-student or B-student?
I re-read the book of "lucky or smart". Just really like this little small book, making you think and trying to see what kind of student you are, A or B student? The author has an interesting analyzing method. I feel that I am B-student. Hope, I will follow the B type pursue the dream smoothly.
Today I finished the audio book "crack millionaire code", quite lengthy but fascinating one. Friday when I visited David and Ann for his birthday, David suggested me to list the books I have been finished. well, I doubt I have the energy to go back to look, but could start recording now.
Now, I am working on "The Reengineering Revolution" by Michael Hammer and Steven A. Stanton.
Today I finished the audio book "crack millionaire code", quite lengthy but fascinating one. Friday when I visited David and Ann for his birthday, David suggested me to list the books I have been finished. well, I doubt I have the energy to go back to look, but could start recording now.
Now, I am working on "The Reengineering Revolution" by Michael Hammer and Steven A. Stanton.
Thursday, May 8, 2008
A new bike
Yesterday I got a new bike, first thing I did, I falled and scratched right knee. But it was just very funny as right cross the street, a bunch of teenager riding bicycles looking at me, wondering if I could ride the bike. The truth is, I did not know how to ride on a bike until I came to U.S. oh, can you believe that I am originally from China. ye, all my friends can not believe this truth. I tried to find all kind of excuses for not riding a bike in front of them. Until someday, my friend Tricia realized and decided to teach me on how to ride a bike.
Apparently, now I need to shape my skill. It is a cross bike with 21 speeds. Quote my mom's word here "I do hope to see you ride on your bike more than 10 minutes!" wow, I'd better beat that challenge.
Apparently, now I need to shape my skill. It is a cross bike with 21 speeds. Quote my mom's word here "I do hope to see you ride on your bike more than 10 minutes!" wow, I'd better beat that challenge.
Are you living your life in full?
I am always impressed with the conversations with elders who decibed how they live their lives. As odd it could sound like, I do enjoy the conversations with people who are older than me, feeling like to communicate with wiseman/wisewoman. Almost all of them, without any reservation, share with me their happiness, sadness and certain regrets. Their sincerity and patience make me comfortable to tell them my struggles and seek the advice. I like to hear each of their advice, then process these in my brain, plus what I have thought, the final decision is always way better than my single-minded process. That is the main reason that I love to read biography, feeling just like to talk to an elder, listening to his life-long stories.
When I was in Pittsburgh in Feb, visiting CMU for a week. With much of my intersts I went to a few classes, visiting a few people in arts school, music school, CS and Human Computing Institute, as well as Tepper. When I was at HCI, a few professors and students repetitively mentioned one person's name "Randy Pausch", who was a professor there before. When they found out that I have no clue, they asked me if I ever watch TV, I said "no, I do not watch it.". They said "why don't you search online". With sort of wonder and curiousity, I watched Randy's "Last Lecture" on youtube. It was encouraging at the moment when I was questioning myself for the step I plan to take, it was inspiration that I will pursue the dream I have, the brick wall is to stop people who do not want that much, but not for people who desperately want it. It is the strength while I was standing in the cold pittsburgh rainy windy downtown, I told myself that I am still alive, I can coninually dream big and make it happen. It was the soul shaking that I have been too serious about my innovation, forgetting why I decided to start at the beginning -- all about fun! Randy's dark humor delivers a lot beyond the words. My prayers are with his family.
Are you living your life in full? living in your full potencial? If you can choose, will you choose the easy life, well, between meadiocore peacefully living and risky advantrous exploration? it is personal choice, but I know which one I will choose.
When I was in Pittsburgh in Feb, visiting CMU for a week. With much of my intersts I went to a few classes, visiting a few people in arts school, music school, CS and Human Computing Institute, as well as Tepper. When I was at HCI, a few professors and students repetitively mentioned one person's name "Randy Pausch", who was a professor there before. When they found out that I have no clue, they asked me if I ever watch TV, I said "no, I do not watch it.". They said "why don't you search online". With sort of wonder and curiousity, I watched Randy's "Last Lecture" on youtube. It was encouraging at the moment when I was questioning myself for the step I plan to take, it was inspiration that I will pursue the dream I have, the brick wall is to stop people who do not want that much, but not for people who desperately want it. It is the strength while I was standing in the cold pittsburgh rainy windy downtown, I told myself that I am still alive, I can coninually dream big and make it happen. It was the soul shaking that I have been too serious about my innovation, forgetting why I decided to start at the beginning -- all about fun! Randy's dark humor delivers a lot beyond the words. My prayers are with his family.
Are you living your life in full? living in your full potencial? If you can choose, will you choose the easy life, well, between meadiocore peacefully living and risky advantrous exploration? it is personal choice, but I know which one I will choose.
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